In the Throws

So today was a rough day for me. I'm not going to totally blame my kids- I mean I was the dummy that stayed up late like a single/childless college student. That being said, some days I am reminded more than ever how hard this season of life is and in NEED of reminding that it really is just a season. More than anything though, when I feel as defeated as I did today, I wonder if I'm doing this parenting thing all wrong. Is my loss of patience going to steer my children away from their savior? Am I doing more damage than good? 

BUT...

When I really sit and consider how loving, steadfast, sovereign and gracious my Heavenly Father is, I realize that he works all things together for good to those that love him and are called according to His purpose. He put my family together just as it is, for my sanctification and HIS glory. He loves my kids more than I ever will and is knitting them together for His purposes. For His glory. For their good.

So tomorrow? 

Tomorrow I receive as a new day. 

New opportunities. 

New mercies. 

New reasons to rejoice in Him. 

New day to rebuke the lies and receive the Truth. 

Some days weeks are hard. I don't know exactly why. They.just.are. May the Lord give me the wisdom and discernment to seek out my children's hearts and point them to their Savior. 

Help me Lord to know you more. Help me to lean not on my own understanding. Fill me to overflowing so that what pours out is not leftover, cold coffee but rather, splashes of fresh brewed Starbucks that never runs out. 

I'm know I'm not alone in this & I have some of the most supportive friends and a husband that is super understanding & always has my back but it is easy as a SAHM to feel secluded and lonely which becomes extremely overwhelming on the rough days. 

Praise God that when I am weak, He is made strong. 

Sunday Stills (A borrowed Idea)

This is not an original idea but it only takes about 5mins to write and is fun so I'm using Rachel's idea of Sunday Stills from over at Finding Joy. Go check her's out, she is has a beautiful heart that ministers to me every time I visit her blog.

Ava

Sunday Stills {v.1}

Today: enjoying time in quiet &spending the morning wtih the Saints

Want to Be: teachable & patient  with my houseful of littles.

Blessings: new music, the bottle of olive oil I was just given.

Thinking: I wish I hadn't made this bowl of food so spicy- my mouth is burning!

Planning: to have a good week & daily in his presence be.

Writing: is a wonderful outlet I wish I'd explored more growing up but thankful to be doing it now.

loving: my new music (sons & daughters) & She Reads Truth & my hardworking husband & Jesus that loves me with a steadfast & everlasting love.

grateful: for my children's forgiveness & good news

Today {again}: Is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.

linking up w/ Rachel for Friday Favorite Things (on Sunday) :)

Take Five on Saturday

Considering it only takes 5 mins, you would think I could manage to squeeze one of these out actually ON Friday but it seems my brain is fried by the time I sit down to write. It's all good, I'm embracing my lateness and claiming my 5 on Saturday :) This week is all about Roots. 

Roots

START.

Roots. Stability. Foundation. Life. 

Roots dig down deep and find the water.

Roots are the beginning of growth.

I am rooted and grounded in love.

As a friend.

As a daughter.

As a mother.

As a wife.

As a christian.

I am rooted in love.

Without Christ, who IS love, my relationships are meaningless.

I am rooted in love.

Without roots, I cannot live.

I am rooted in love.

STOP.

When I don't feel it

Since November tends to be the time of year that we set aside to remember what we are truly thankful for AND since today was one of those days... I'm featuring my little man. 

He is super sweet. He makes us laugh. He makes us crazy. 

It is a fact that I don't know what my life would be like without him in it. It is a fact that I don't want to know. The day he came into this world, I was more blessed than I could have imagined.

No matter how sometimes draining and exhausting it is to mother him, I wouldn't have it any other way. He loves me. He adores his daddy. He is befriending his sisters. It is a beautiful thing to watch the little man that took our family from 2 to 3 and made it so much more fulfilling and meaningful.

So even on days when I don't feel very thankful, I am. 

Malakai, Mommy really does love you.