growing pains & little cains: One More Sleep.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

One More Sleep.

Summin it up...

My head feels all jumbled. I love how as a mom I am capable of feeling a gazillion different emotions in a matter of minutes. It is ridiculous. And sometimes wonderful. Occasionally, awful.

Lately, I have been feeling extra sentimental. Like, I'm sure I am going to literally wake up tomorrow and my son will be 20 and gone and I'll have no idea how I slept away 17 years. It is going that fast. So I've been holding on a little tighter. Worrying less about the stuff that doesn't matter. Having Rita's and McD's and lovin' on some babies. Realizing that laying with my boy for "this many minutes" (holding up 4 chubby 3yr old little fingers) is totally worth it. He is precious and will certainly be grown before I am ready.

Stains on the carpet? Piles of dirty laundry? Dishes, dishes, dishes? Sometimes that stuff can wait. Because time doesn't stand still while I "fix" all those things. Sometimes I believe that. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes the piled up chores aren't a choice- they are just life. And sometimes I think I'm the only mama that lives this way.

I'm not.

More than once these past couple of single parenthood I have had to apologize for my sin. More than once I have had to step back and think about whether this was really worth all that. What is wonderful is the instant forgiveness that little ones offer. With Malakai, it's over faster than it started. What a beautiful lesson I can take from him. He doesn't know you are supposed hold on to this stuff. There isn't any process he has to walk through- no steps or or rules. Ask for forgiveness & it's done. Oh that childlike faith.

Overall, I'd have to say things have gone pretty well. I certainly have a longer thankful list than complaints.

This week leaves me thankful for soooo much!

First of all, I am so incredibly thankful for loving community. My friends are some of the best around. People that are easy to eat good food with. Enjoy a cup of coffee and talk. People that will be faithful to lift you up with encouragement and prayer. These are the kind of people everyone should have around them.

Second in line is Malakai. His little mind is so full of one-liners. He has no idea how hysterical he is. Actually, he often tells me to stop laughing at him. He has brought so much joy and laughter to my life.

Third has to be ice cream. Today was Rita's (Mango Gilati anyone???). The other night we had drumsticks (the chocolate at the end of the cone=bliss #amirite???) Multiple nights it was Bryer's mint chocolate chip (the white kind- none of that nasty green stuff). Ice cream. You Scream. We all scream for ICE CREAM!!!

I told him to show me how excited he was for Rita's <3

Fourth would be the beautiful weather. Super fun picnic and park night. Multiple evenings playing before dinner. Just laying in the grass or on the sidewalk. Sunsets. Library. Pool. Sand box. Friends.

Last would be technology. Skype allowed my husband to actually get to see his family while he was gone. He could witness the craziness before lunch. He was able to experience some of the witching hour- you know, that time following afternoon nap & before bedtime? He got to see me. (obviously his favorite part :)) SO thankful.

2 weeks without Papa? We got this!

Wait? Did I say "last"??? No way! The final thing I am SUPER thankful for as we round out this week... ONLY ONE MORE SLEEP TIL DADDY COMES HOME!!! (now for me to go start on that sleep)

There are so many things I could add to this list. God has been so good to me. Thank you Jesus that you care for me. I am so blessed.

**I'm just going to add a little disclaimer that these photos are straight out of the old phone camera and thus the quality is less than desirable**