Thursday, April 26, 2012

The Wait (NIAW)

Truly, I had every intention of writing this post yesterday but it just didn't happen.

Infertility. If you have read my blog like at all, you would assume that I have not had to battle with this ugly beast. You'd be right. Sort of. I am what they call, "Fertile Myrtle." It's true. I've never had a miscarriage. I've gotten pregnant every time I set out to. We are blessed. So, so very blessed to be enjoying this bliss.

However... The pain is all too close. 

She waits.

She wonders.

Why ME?
I would love her so much. 

People pass by.

No idea of the pain she holds.
Deeply it cuts.
A baby carriage. 

Maybe this month? 

Not Pregnant.
Not surprised.
Devastation sets in like infection. 

She knows.

He loves her.
Jesus really, really loves her.
Hope is Alive. 

Friends reach out.

Ignorant comments.
Well meaning.
Their hugs mean the most.

If I am totally honest, I've been that friend. I am that friend. With everything in me, I try not to be ignorant. For all the beautiful woman I know (or will know) that have struggled with infertility, let me say, 

"I'm Sorry" 

More than you know. I am sorry for your grief. I am sorry for your wait. I am sorry for the inevitable stupid things I have & will say. As a mama, I can empathize but I will likely never truly know your pain.

My promise is this... I will pray for you. I will pray with you. I will never lose hope. When you are weak & hurting the most, I promise to be available. To the best of my ability, I am here. A shoulder. An ear. A support. A friend. I promise to try to only have loving, kind, considerate words for you. Please know that I look forward, in faith, to the BLISS you WILL know. Whatever that may look like.

Maybe you are reading this and you don't really know what I'm talking about. You, maybe are the person that ignorantly asks, "So, when are you all gonna have a baby??" "Do you even want kids?" Humorously, you comment, "You know, that biological clock runs down eventually." It isn't funny. Many, many women (and lets be real, men, hopeful daddies) carry this burden silently. 

My encouragement? Take a step back, fertile myrtle. Do some research. Educate yourself. Find out about this painful emptiness called, infertility. Learn how to be a better friend. Learn how you can help. (Here is a  helpful link to some Infertility Etiquette for us fertiles of the world)

This week (April 22-28) is National Infertility Awareness Week
Show some love. Don't ignore it.

Here's to BLISS, ladies!

Click here for more info


  1. This post is amazing.

    1. Thank you, Amanda. It is an honor to be able to share my heart and spread awareness.


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